I woke up to find myself as the villain's older sister.

Chapter 363 Atoning for You

On the other side, Yun Qingrou, nestled in Yun Qingyi's arms, gradually regained her composure and buried her head even deeper into her arms.

The feeling that lingered in his heart was gradually becoming uncontrollable.

Her older sister was her Achilles' heel.

So, even though things concerning her sister were just ordinary and insignificant, they were of paramount importance to her.

The reason she lost control just now was because she sensed a change in Yun Qingyi's feelings for Xie Xiyan.

Although it wasn't as deep as her relationship with her older sister, she felt a sense of crisis.

This leads to a strong possessiveness.

Even though she knows it's wrong, many people like her, and she should feel happy.

But she really couldn't be happy.

She harbored deep resentment towards both Ji Zhaoze and Xie Xiyan.

He was extremely jealous of anyone who received his sister's attention and smiles, and he wanted to destroy them.

All these negative emotions made Yun Qingrou feel a sense of helplessness and powerlessness that were both unfamiliar and understandable.

Deep down, she believed that she was a selfish and domineering person.

Because that's what everyone has said since I was little.

The second young lady of the Yun family is spoiled and selfish. Despite her young age, she is ruthless and domineering, showing no mercy.

From the time she could remember, she had been forced to learn how to carry out missions because of her talent, and her family regarded her as the successor for special missions.

Forced to undergo high-intensity training from a young age, her journey during the mission was not smooth sailing from the start; in fact, she suffered a lot.

Recalling this, Yun Qingrou's eyes dimmed slightly, as if she was unwilling to remember it any longer.

Even as the second young lady of the Yun family, she could not leave the secret service of the Yun family at will. She had no friends, and her spoiled and cold personality made people of her age afraid to get close to her. When they met, they would just give a respectful greeting and leave quickly.

So in those gray, colorless days when all she knew was to carry out her missions.

Yun Qingyi appeared.

She is like a butterfly, fluttering, fragile, and beautiful, imprinted deep in my heart, taking root and sprouting.

Although her older sister was raised under the same mother's name, she received different kinds of love.

From a young age, her mother told her that although her older sister was extremely talented, she was in poor health, but the family had to send a direct descendant to the secret service.

Although her mother loved her very much, she chose to send her to the Yun family's secret service almost without any consideration.

If someone asks her if she feels lost and resentful.

It is normal to feel disappointed and unfair.

But she never did.

Her older sister was too wonderful; she didn't want to, and didn't wish for, her to go to such a place.

A gentle and fragile butterfly should have all the beautiful things in the world surrounding it for it to gather.

Therefore, she never harbored any negative feelings towards Yun Qingyi.

Perhaps the only negative emotion is the desire to possess this beauty.

She didn't even agree with this idea, so she kept it hidden in her heart and never revealed it to the outside world.

She tried her best to be obedient and well-behaved in front of Yun Qingyi, to be a good, innocent younger sister.

She wanted Yun Qingyi to like her a little more, and even more, so that they could become indispensable in each other's lives.

But suddenly, many people entered my sister's life.

Originally, there were only her parents and some family members. But since entering the Xuanmiao Sect, my sister has gained a master, a senior brother, a junior brother, a blade of grass, and a wild rabbit she brought back from outside.

These people sometimes make her feel very uncomfortable.

But she didn't want her older sister to think she had such dark thoughts. These thoughts made her feel uneasy. She wanted to suppress them, control them, and eliminate them, but no matter what, a voice seemed to keep reminding her that she was not the most important person to Yun Qingyi.

One day, Yun Qingrou will be abandoned by Yun Qingyi.

At first, she scoffed and paid no attention, letting the voice shout wildly in the depths of her heart without being moved.

Although she couldn't control the sound, she could ignore it.

Over time, she almost got used to the sound, trying to solidify something that seemed to be loosening.

Although she didn't know what that thing was, her intuition told her she couldn't let it come out.

But things backfired.

The harder she tried, the more arrogant that thing became, and it always felt stronger and stronger, almost breaking through her rationality, and many times it almost made her lose control.

She could never control herself when it came to things involving Yun Qingyi.

So when she saw Xie Xiyan this time, that thing broke through her rationality again. Although she tried her best to control it, that hostility still leaked out.

My sister must have been embarrassed.

Yun Qingrou felt extremely guilty.

"Ah Rou, are you alright?"

Just as Yun Qingrou was reminiscing and feeling guilty, Yun Qingyi's voice suddenly rang out.

Yun Qingrou paused for a moment, then slowly raised her eyes from her embrace to look at her: "Sister, I..." before quickly lowering her head again.

My older sister must have noticed something was wrong with me.

How will she view herself...? Will she feel disgusted? Will she feel disappointed? Will she feel deceived?

She always felt that her seemingly innocent younger sister wasn't actually that kind-hearted.

As Yun Qingrou was lost in thought, she suddenly felt a warm touch on the top of her head.

She was slightly taken aback, meeting Yun Qingyi's extremely gentle eyes.

"Arou, are you still feeling unwell?" Yun Qingyi looked at her tenderly, a lifelike paper butterfly that appeared out of nowhere in her palm, just like the one Yun Qingyi had given to Yun Qingrou back then.

Yun Qingrou stared blankly at the paper butterfly in Yun Qingyi's palm, her eyes suddenly welling up with tears, but she stubbornly refused to let them fall.

Seeing this, Yun Qingyi hugged Yun Qingrou and glanced at everyone: "I'm taking Arou to relax. We'll be back in a bit."

Having said that, he vanished in an instant.

Everyone stared blankly in the direction where Yun Qingyi had disappeared.

Leng Zhan: "What happened? Why do you suddenly want to go for a walk?"

Even Ji Zhaoze shook his head: "I don't know."

Ruan Qi: "I noticed the strangeness of the two senior uncles a while ago, but Senior Uncle Qingyi had set up an anti-peeping barrier from the beginning, so I couldn't detect it."

Gu Qiqing scratched his head somewhat embarrassedly, "I'm about the same. Since my junior sister has already set up a barrier, even if we have the ability to spy, it's obviously not a good idea."

He then nudged Xie Xiyan gently with his elbow and asked curiously, "Brother Xie, what about you? Do you know what happened?"

Although Xie Xiyan had a guess, he shook his head and smiled helplessly, "I don't know either."

Gu Qiqing nodded with some regret upon hearing this, but also naturally: "Indeed, very few people can understand the thoughts of someone like Junior Sister Qingyi unless she speaks up."

Xie Xiyan smiled slightly and nodded in agreement, but felt inexplicably annoyed.

Who says he doesn't understand!

He understands!

He understands!

……

In a quiet, deserted clearing deep in the woods.

"Ah Rou, if you're feeling down, just cry it out. Your older sister will always be here for you."

When Yun Qingyi saw Yun Qingrou acting like a child, clutching her paper butterfly tightly in her hand, she gently patted and soothed her back as if coaxing a child.

Seeing that there was no one around except the two of them, Yun Qingrou finally couldn't help but burst into tears.

"Waaaaah, sister, I feel so bad."

"My sister has been tormenting me, and I didn't want to become like this."

"Sister, do you hate me? Do you think I'm not well-behaved, not cute, not kind, and not pure?"

"Sister...don't leave me..."

At this point, Yun Qingrou's voice became incredibly fragile, and her tear-filled eyes pleaded with her.

The once spirited and arrogant youth is now as humble as dust.

“Arou…”

Seeing this, Yun Qingyi felt extremely distressed. She carefully pulled Yun Qingrou into her arms and said, "How could you think like that? Your older sister will not leave you."

"No matter what Arou is like or what she becomes in the future, I will never give up on Arou, and I will never leave you."

"Really...really?" Hearing Yun Qingyi's words, Yun Qingrou was somewhat dazed, thinking she was hallucinating, her tone carrying a hint of disbelief.

"of course it's true."

"What if Arou becomes less pure?"

"Everyone's growth is different. Whether one is pure or not is not just about the innocence of being naive, but about maintaining one's original aspirations after experiencing hardships."

Regardless of whether Arou's original intentions remain true or not, I like Arou, regardless of right or wrong.

Yun Qingrou was startled and asked stubbornly, "What if I did something heinous and harmed the innocent?"

As soon as she asked that question, Yun Qingrou regretted it.

What my elder sister cares about most is the well-being of all people. Doesn't her saying this put her in a dilemma?

"Sister...I..." I took it back...

Before she could finish her sentence, Yun Qingyi suddenly looked into her eyes, which held emotions she couldn't decipher.

"I will atone for your sins. If you die by my hand, I will be buried with you."