allonlinenovel Chapter 432: Comparison of the Past
Chapter 432: Comparison of the Past
Lu Jingchen sat alone in a dim room, surrounded by the pungent smell of alcohol and tobacco. His eyes were fixed on a corner, but his thoughts drifted back to the past, back to the life before Jiang Ciyou broke in.
At that time, his life was like a calm lake, without too many waves. Every morning, the sun shone on his face through the gaps in the curtains, and he would stretch lazily, then get up slowly. His room was always tidy and orderly, with every item in its place, unlike now, where there are bottles and cigarette butts everywhere. He would carefully choose the clothes to wear that day, fix his hairstyle in front of the mirror, and look at the young and energetic self in the mirror, with his heart full of expectations for the new day.
His life rhythm is simple and regular. During the day, he would go to a place he likes, maybe a quiet coffee shop, sit in a corner, order a cup of fragrant coffee, and then open a book that interests him. He is immersed in the world of books, and the hustle and bustle of the outside world seems to have nothing to do with him. Sometimes, he would go to art galleries, quietly appreciate those paintings, and feel the emotions that the painters poured into the canvas. He does not need to worry about other people's feelings, and does not need to be cautious about another person's emotions. He only needs to focus on his own heart.
He has a group of like-minded friends who get together regularly. Sometimes they have a picnic outdoors on the lawn, with everyone bringing their favorite food. They play and joke on the lawn, sharing the latest interesting stories in each other's lives. Laughter echoes in the air, a pure and carefree joy. In the evening, they may go to see a movie, and then after the movie, they enthusiastically discuss the plot of the movie, the characters' personalities, and the ideas that the director wants to convey. At that time, the night was full of the warmth of friendship and the love of life.
He has a wide range of hobbies. In addition to reading and appreciating art, he also likes music. He has a beloved guitar. In his spare time, he would sit in front of the window, gently pluck the strings, and play beautiful songs. Those songs are like the voice in his heart, either melodious or passionate, telling his feelings about life. He would also compose some songs by himself, incorporating his joys, sorrows, anger and happiness into the notes. Although his life is plain, it is full of his own little happiness.
However, the appearance of Jiang Ciyou was like a stone thrown into a calm lake, completely disrupting his original life. Their meeting was so accidental, but it seemed like fate. From that moment on, his life began to revolve around her.
Every moment of his time with Jiang Ciyou was filled with strong emotions. When they were on vacation at the beach, he felt the joy that penetrated his bones for the first time. In the morning, they greeted the sunrise over the sea together. When the red sun slowly rose from the sea level and sprinkled golden light on them, he looked at Jiang Ciyou's face, which was particularly beautiful in the sun, and his heart was full of longing for the future. They walked hand in hand on the beach, and Jiang Ciyou's laughter was heard in his ears by the sea breeze. The sound seemed to be the most beautiful melody in the world. He would secretly look at her, and every expression and every movement of hers could touch his heartstrings.
In a high-end restaurant, he would watch Jiang Ciyou tasting the food intently. She took a bite of the food gently, then closed her eyes, as if she was trying to feel the deliciousness of the food. He felt that she was so charming at that moment, and he was willing to do anything for her just to see the satisfied smile on her face. They would look at each other in the candlelight, their eyes full of love and tenderness, everything around them became blurred, and only the moment when their eyes met was so clear.
They also had quarrels, and those quarrels were like storms, short but intense. Every quarrel would torment him, he was afraid of losing her, afraid that their relationship would be broken because of these quarrels. He would try his best to cheer her up after the quarrel, giving her flowers and taking her to her favorite places, just to see her smile again.
Now that Jiang Ciyou has left, his life has become a mess. He tried to return to the peaceful life in the past, but found that he could not go back. He had become accustomed to the life with Jiang Ciyou, and the days full of passion and love. Now, sitting in this room full of memories, he felt like a child lost in the dark, unable to find his way home.
He thought about how he used to be able to freely decide what to do every day, where to go, and when to go home. But now, his life is completely out of control. He is trapped in this room all day, surrounded by pain and memories. He misses the old self who was full of energy and love for life, but he feels that self has gone away from him.
He knew that Jiang Ciyou's departure had changed everything for him. He had thought that they would go on forever and create more beautiful memories together. But the reality was so cruel, and her departure had put him in an irretrievable situation. He didn't know how to find his former self again, and whether he could still live a peaceful and meaningful life like before. He felt like a traveler abandoned in the wilderness, surrounded by endless darkness and loneliness, without a glimmer of hope.
Dear readers, in this chapter, I want to make you feel more deeply the pain and struggle in his heart through Lu Jingchen's comparison of his past life. Love is sometimes like this. It can bring endless happiness to people, but it can also plunge people into the abyss when they lose it. Lu Jingchen's originally peaceful life was broken by Jiang Ciyu, and then shattered because of her departure. This huge gap made him fall into extreme pain. I hope everyone can feel the complexity and variability of love from his experience, and I also hope that everyone can understand his various behaviors and psychological changes in this situation. Everyone may be confused, painful, and even self-denial when facing the setbacks of love, and this is the true portrayal of human nature in the face of love. I hope everyone can continue to pay attention to Lu Jingchen's growth and his future destiny.