Don't think of rebirth.

Chapter 649 Weakness

The bedroom that Xiang Ji Ri prepared for Lu Jingying was covered with thick, furry carpet.

With floor heating, you won’t feel cold even if you walk barefoot on it, and the room is always warm.

At this moment, Lu Jingying and Lucas were sitting face to face on the carpet.

Lu Jingying didn't know what to say. As if seeing her panic, Lucas took the initiative to speak: "Mom, are you sad now?"

He was really not good at beating around the bush, but fortunately, Lu Jingying also needed this straightforwardness at this moment.

She was prepared for the storm, but she didn't expect to be greeted with such gentle care.

Lu Jingying habitually wanted to show her strength and denied it: "I'm not sad, I just didn't expect you to endure so much."

"If my educational methods are a burden to you, you can tell me and I will adjust them accordingly so that you can..."

Lu Jingying didn't finish her words because she realized that this was just a "hypothesis."

It's too late, Lucas is already eighteen years old. Under her arrangement, Lucas has long lost his childhood. What nonsense is she talking about here now?

Is she trying to make amends for herself? Or is she blaming Lucas? She is simply obsessed with this!

Lu Jingying pinched her palms and bit her lower lip. The slight pain made her mind clearer. At the same time, the pain spread from her heart.

"I'm sorry..." Before she finished her apology, Lucas shook his head calmly and said, "Mom, don't apologize. You're not wrong."

As if to emphasize, he emphasized again: "You were not wrong in the first place."

Lu Jingying's educational method is definitely not wrong. Both his behavior and his ability are enough to prove his excellence.

And all of this stems from Lu Jingying's training.

There are definitely not only two options in the world: right or wrong. Similarly, no one can be the best.

Lu Jingying has tried hard enough and tried her best to be nice to him, but she is still immature.

Isn't this a matter of course? She is a first-time mother and has no experience, so it is normal for her to have shortcomings.

What Lu Jingying said was correct, it was he who did not express his thoughts.

He always felt that his mother had given a lot for him, and he wanted to be considerate of her, so he would rather suffer himself.

If he had told his mother earlier that he was tired and wanted to rest, his mother would definitely change her behavior for him.

Immature mothers and immature children are the same in every family in the world. Lu Jingying and Lucas are just one of them.

"But the pressure you have endured in the past can no longer be compensated," said Lu Jingying.

Lucas smiled and said lightly: "I don't need to make up for it, because my mother was always with me at that time, so I was very happy every day."

"I am not saying this to make my mother sad or regretful. I just want to express my thoughts."

He looked straight at Lu Jingying and said seriously, "Mom, I've grown up and I'm no longer as fragile as before. I can do a lot of things well. You don't have to worry about me anymore."

"I hope you can stop worrying about me and enjoy your own life."

The word "one's own life" appeared so suddenly that Lu Jingying was stunned.

She said subconsciously: "I am living a good life now..."

"You're not living well," Lucas directly denied her words, "Mom, your life can't just be about me. You can't pin all your hopes on me."

Lucas felt his heartbeat gradually speed up, his heart beating so violently in his chest.

He finally said those words: "Mom, I am better than Tao Shenxing, is this the happiness you want?"

"Of course not!" Lu Jingying blurted out, "I really want you to win over Tao Shenxing. After all, he is Xiang Jiri's child. That Xiang Jiri, she——"

Xiang Ji Ri is the one favored by fate, but she is not, so she wants to prove through her child that she has not lost to fate.

In this way, even if Lucas is her unfortunate child, he will definitely be happy.

However, the moment this thought came into his mind, Lu Jingying couldn't say it out loud in front of Lucas.

...No, that's not the case.

Lu Jingying raised her hands and slowly covered her face.

If this is the case, then wouldn't the decision on the happiness she wants to bring to Lucas be in Tao Shenxing's hands?

After all, isn’t she just consuming Lucas’ life in an attempt to save face for herself?

Seeing her like this, Lucas suddenly panicked, thinking she was crying.

He looked around helplessly, trying to find a tissue to wipe Lu Jingying's face, but soon he heard a heavy inhalation.

Lu Jingying put down her hands, her eyes were red, and because she was trying to keep a straight face, her eyes looked widened, making her expression look ferocious.

But she didn't cry—now was not the time to cry.

She has as many opportunities to cry as she wants. In that case, she would rather cry for happiness than cry for regret and pain.

"It's mom who's sorry for you," Lu Jingying's voice sounded hoarse and muddy, "I shouldn't have imposed my will on you."

Lucas stopped moving. He didn't expect Lu Jingying to apologize so straightforwardly. It was too sudden and he felt he was not ready to deal with it.

But slowly, emotions of bitterness and joy filled his heart.

He knew why Lu Jingying did this, just like when he was a child, he accidentally hit the table and a pair of scissors fell down and cut his hand.

Lu Jingying did the same, while treating his wounds, she immediately apologized to him.

His mother is the person who loves him most in the world. This love may be stubborn, strong and one-sided, but as long as there is room for communication and opportunity for correction, Lu Jingying will do it without hesitation.

She will always work hard for his happiness.

"Mom, it's okay." Lucas said, "I'm happy to know Tao Shenxing and become friends with him."

"It's just that I hope that from now on, Mom, you can rely on your own strength to grab what you want."

He looked into Lu Jingying's eyes seriously: "You want to beat Aunt Xiang, right?"

Lu Jingying couldn't avoid this question and finally nodded in silence.

She wanted to win, an obsession she had for years. Even though she knew it was ridiculous, she still wanted to be free.

Lucas' eyes lit up, and he said in a tone that could not be refused: "This time I will help mom."

"What?" Lu Jingying thought she had heard it wrong.

"I will find Aunt Xiang's weakness, and then you will defeat her!" Lucas said with great joy, "Although you think she is amazing, in my opinion, my mother is the best!"

Lu Jingying wanted to say something, but when she saw Lucas's expression, she shut her mouth again.

Although in her opinion, Xiang Jiri's weaknesses were insignificant and there was no question of "defeating" him, but if the child was happy, she would let him be.