allonlinenovel Chapter 242 I only ask that you and I stay together peacefully for one lifetime.
Chapter 242 I only ask that you and I stay together peacefully for one lifetime.
Hesitation and indecisiveness became insignificant under the powerful suppression of force.
He only needed to know that if he really angered Qin Yizhen, and Qin Yizhen ignored him as before, he would immediately admit defeat.
When Qin Yizhen walked in from the door, he realized what was happening and quickly got up to greet her, helping her to sit down: "Why did you come all of a sudden?"
"Can't I come?" Qin Yizhen scoffed. "If I don't come, are you planning to hide here forever?"
Cheng Yan waved for the servants to leave, and soon only the couple remained in the room.
Cheng Yan sat down beside her, reached for a clean teacup, and poured her a cup of tea.
Qin Yizhen drank a cup of tea, feeling slightly better, and then said to him, "I'll let it go today, but you'd better think carefully about how to explain yourself to me. If your explanation doesn't satisfy me, then..."
"So what?"
"Then let's settle both the old and new scores together." Qin Yizhen snorted. "If it weren't for the Mid-Autumn Festival today, and this isn't the time to argue with you, you could stay here at Chunhui Garden tonight."
"I am deeply grateful for your kindness, my wife."
"Stop talking nonsense." Qin Yizhen glanced at him, still feeling somewhat uncomfortable. "I've already told you, if you don't have a reason that can convince me, then I won't agree."
"When it comes to having children, men and women are inherently different. You may not want to have children now for some reason, but that doesn't mean you won't want to in the future."
Qin Yizhen put it bluntly, "Moreover, people's thoughts change. You are in your twenties now and think that children are a troublesome thing, but when you are forty or fifty years old, when you are enjoying the company of your grandchildren and they have all grown up, you may feel lonely around your knees and want children. You may even care about whether there will be anyone to pay respects after you die."
"By then, I will be too old to have another child with you. You may have found another young and beautiful woman by then."
“If I disagree, you should say that this is your life’s wish and you hope that I will grant it. People will also curse me for being childless and cutting off your family’s bloodline, and that I am a sinner to your family.”
"It was clearly your own idea. I did nothing wrong, so why should I bear all this blame?" Qin Yizhen felt more and more aggrieved as she spoke. "In a few years, if I still don't have children, people will say I'm a hen that can't lay eggs."
Cheng Yan was speechless for a moment.
The world has always been harsher on women. Even with his previous marriage to Qin Yizhen, many people privately said that she was a femme fatale, promiscuous and seducing him.
If they don't have children for several years, people outside might actually say that.
It was clearly his decision, yet she had to bear all the consequences. She also had to face the possibility that her husband might regret it one day, want children again, and then abandon her because she couldn't have any.
Seeing his silence, Qin Yizhen continued, "So you need to think this through carefully and have a reason that can convince me, otherwise I will not agree."
Qin Yizhen still hopes that she can be with him for a long time, and that they can love each other and grow old together.
She wanted to have a child, firstly because she wanted a child with his bloodline and wanted to leave him a child, and secondly, to secure her own future.
Yes, at that time they were a loving couple, willing to stay together for life and never leave each other, but life is long, and she could not guarantee that his feelings for her would not change, that he would not get tired of her, or that his thoughts would change in the future, that he would suddenly want children, or even want to have children with someone else.
People's hearts really do change. Just like her, when she was first reborn, all she wanted was to be with him, nothing else mattered. But now, she thinks about her future and eliminates all things that are unstable.
She had thought it all through. She would have at least one child with him. When they got older and their love faded, and he really changed his mind and had another woman, she could still take care of the child and treat him as family, not her husband.
After such a frank and open discussion, clearly analyzing the situation, Cheng Yan felt quite uneasy.
He always knew what he wanted, and he was determined to believe that his feelings for her would never change and that he would stay with her for life. But she both believed him and didn't.
I believe in his feelings and am willing to walk with him through thick and thin. If one day he really changes his mind, I will also find a way out for myself and let him go his own way.
In this love affair, one is deeply infatuated yet remains clear-headed and true to oneself, leaving oneself a way out even if life becomes unbearable.
Cheng Yan felt as if his heart was being repeatedly squeezed and kneaded by a hand, a feeling that was both sore and swollen, and painful, an indescribable sensation.
For a fleeting moment, he wanted to ask her what she would do if he didn't want children.
But he was keenly aware that he shouldn't have asked that question.
Without children, she might feel insecure in the future, fearing that he might change his mind and abandon her one day, and she would have to endure the gossip and judgment of those idle people.
Whether from a moral or logical standpoint, it's better to have one child.
"I'm just worried about you." Cheng Yan opened his mouth with difficulty. "Women go through ten months of pregnancy and childbirth, and they have to go through the gates of hell during childbirth."
"My mother passed away because of me." The day he was born was the anniversary of his mother's death, so he had not celebrated his birthday for the past twenty-four years.
Only this year did I receive a bowl of longevity noodles.
He didn't feel wronged at all, but he was afraid of women getting pregnant and giving birth, especially her; he was even more afraid that she would go through these things.
Just thinking about it makes me want to go crazy.
"And look at your mother. She has sacrificed so much for me, for Huizhen, and for His Majesty. All her heart, blood, and sweat have been poured into this. I don't want you to end up like her."
"And if you have a child like Huizhen, not only will they be infuriating every day, but they will also live their lives in a muddle, which will make you angry just looking at them."
"Moreover, I don't know how to be a father. I'm afraid that I will neglect my child and make him suffer. I'm even more worried that I won't raise him well and that he will end up like Pei Yutang, harming himself and others."
“You were always anxious and fearful that I would die and leave you, and you felt the same way about me, or even more so.”
"I have no obsession with children. I just feel that when a person dies, it's like a lamp going out, and everything becomes the past."
"I do not ask for offspring or children to accompany me in my old age. I only ask that you and I live a peaceful and safe life together. That is all."